About Primordial Evil and How This Lives in (Almost) All of Us

My last post was easy to digest—with interesting weird pictures and little text. Now I’m wondering if this is really a good topic to start with. But looking at my ideas for upcoming content in the launch of my website 25.05.25 .. it’s all a bit dark. Or sexual. Or both?! It makes sense—my Sun, Moon, Mars, Uranus, and Rahu hang out all in Scorpio. Anyway… back to evil!

On my last journey to Colombia, the medicine brought me face to face with something I can only describe as primordial evil. Not the subtle, covered kind that hides in people’s actions here on Earth—but directly IT: raw, ancient, undeniable. It’s impossible to really describe. But what I saw, I won’t forget.
She showed me how this destructive darkness wants to live in all of us—until we heal, reclaim our true selves, and reconnect with our soul.
Usually not because we consciously choose evil, but because trauma has disconnected us from our inner power and wisdom. When that happens, sometimes there’s nothing else that seems to offer support or shelter. Sometimes, the only way to survive appears to be to become colder, more aggressive, unfeeling. In that moment, the dark can seem like the only power available.
A friend once told me what his teacher said:
“If we could really see what moves through us when fear or rage takes over, we’d be shocked.”
Having glimpsed it myself, I agree. Since this experience, I can see it more around me—if I choose to. I can sense what comes through when the soul isn’t present and awareness is clouded.
Then the medicine said:
“You choose.”
Nothing can override the will in the core of a soul that wants to stay rooted in love and wisdom.
How to deal with evil?
She said:
“It wants your attention—just to weaken you. To frighten you. So it can enter. Learn to let it be there. But choose to stay in your light.”
Establishing the right conduct and boundaries with it feels like one of the key teachings for these times.
Why does evil even exist if there’s a God/dess?
To me, it seems like a deep and sacred mystery.
Maybe because without true choice, love wouldn’t be real.
So in that sense—even evil serves love. It plays its role by offering a real alternative: a path either toward or away from the center.
And… it has to act like there’s no love, no light, no God/dess—only chaos and selfish power.
Like a cosmic filter, tempting and testing us.
No one is forced to love.
True freedom… kind of scary sometimes, right?